yukisilver

What a relaxing couple of weeks its been...

Link, Kyo and I are all in the same house again, and I feel so much better for it. Although, I was enjoying the dates we would have before, but there's nothing saying we cant do that again *smiles* all three of us need to go out some time, we do after all have something important to discuss...

Every time I think about it, my stomach fills with butterfies. It's almost like I canr belive it... but it's true. I dont think I"ve stopped smiling since Valentines day... and the funny think is, Kyo and I were planning something just the same... *smiles*

Perhaps I can get away with waiting a few more days before we all go out >.> Its still a few more days before I can dress normally *twitch* Who knew Kyo could actually beat me? I supose I got to cocky... *blush* Although after all the fighting about it... he did leave me the hot watrer in the end *smiles* I suppose seeing me in a dress was enough reward for him

*cough*

I have the most massive headache in the history of headaches... ever

*sigh* I guess it's to be expected, all the mental reprograming and what not... I think I saw a movie like this once, and I cant seem to remember if the main character lived happily ever after, or if he died from brain tumors *shrug* oh well

I'm just happy I remember them... My Kyo and my Link... although the blurry memories bother me, I'm... afriad they might slip away again... *sigh* but trying to remember to fast just gives me a headache.

I cant even remember clearly what happened yet... I do get angry though, sometimes, for no reason... whatever happened must have been horrible.

I dont like concentrating on all that though... I just... want to be with them.

There is the matter of Fiona though... I seem to remember as my sister, and I feel protective of her... and yet... I"m not positive she really is my sister... *sigh*

Its so tempting to just try and remember, bit right now.... I dont think I can. I'll have to wait till a little later... perhaps a nap would be good for my head...

Hm... Its been so quiet latly. I supose that's to be expected during winter vacation... it just feels like I should be doing more. As soon as school starts up again I'm sure I'll be regretting that thought *sigh*

Fiona bought me the nicest thing for christmas, a little mouse from the pet store she works at... it's a cute little thing, all white with pink eyes. I'm not quite sure what to name it though...

I feel so out of the loop... I have so much homework to do and yet I cant bring myself to do it. Fiona seems to think it's because I'm bored, she insists I get out and make some friends *sigh* I supose she's only pestering me because she cares...

I think perhaps I'll look around for a dojo to practise at... she wants me to teacher her to fight, and if she wants to learn perhaps we could just take a class together. I just have this feeling that if I comit once my classes start up I wont have any time to keep going *sigh* I'm sure this lingering dullness wont last for much longer.

The strangest things happened to me the other night. I was aving this horrible dream... I dont remember it well, just that it was horribly cold and I was afriad of something... anyway, I woke up and somehow my little mouse had gotten out from her cage and was sitting on my chest, just looking at me as if to check if I was okay. I'm happy she didnt run away or anything... still, it was strange.

Anyway, I think its time to try and put some dinner together...

... I totally forgot I had one of these things >.>

Not like I've been short on things to do anyway. I dont think I'll bother listing everything, it would just be far to much.

I've just gotten in from x-mas shopping *pleased smile* It was quite enjoyable, but hard to sneak out without either Kyo ar Link noticing me. However it's all said and done, and I have some nice gifts for them. I'm so glad things have been going smooth latly, a pleasant break from all the trouble we've seem to come into.

I'm really tired of things being so dramatic... but things finally seem to be working themselves out... Although I think the thin cold air has been bothering my lungs, I keep getting sleepy for no apperebt reason... I think I sort of fell asleep on Link in the middle of baking cookies O.o

Otherwise I spend todaying hanging up holly and mistletoe and I bought a tree. Havn't touched it yet though, I think we should all decorate that together, but I do have a few nice pakages to go under it *smiles*

Now I think I'll pour myself a nice glass of eggnog and relax... hopefully someone will get home soon, so I can refuse to tell them what I got for them *small grin*

Well I won that stupid fight... Not that I'm to pleased with it. I won under... displeasing cercumstanses. I'm afraid I might have caused a bit of a scene *shakes head*. At least Kyo and I seem to be past that. I hate the feeling that there might be some so dark and terrible in my head that it might just kill me... how would I know, I cant remember.

Its so unsettling...

I wish I could just stop remembering. I... I enjoy spending time with Kyo, I like holding him and kissing him and.... just being with him. I feel so close to him... to remember hating him hurts.

Its seems so far away, like something horrible is reaching out from far away. Its eerie... but then, when we're together, its almost just as easilly forgotten. I'd like to talk to Seto about this, I belive me might have experienced something similair...

As well, I'd like to have him over for dinner. I'm sick of being so formal.

Otherwise... It was raining the other day, which makes Kyo about as active as ... a very lazy... something. Its to late at night (early in the morning) to be witty. besied, I'm tired **small, devious smile** He's such a cute little kitten **pleasant smile**

I supose I should go to bed, these infomercials are gslowly turning to softcore porn... ew.

well... I've been getting those stabbing pains in my head gain. last time that happened... i remembered someone named Akito. I was worried when I started getting them again, I didnt know what I would remember...

Funny thing is, I remembered... Kyo. Apperently I knew him, before I was on this island... funny thing is I dont know why we're here, or why I cant remember things...

Oh, I better go talk to Seto! I wonder if he'll know anything about it, he's been having memory problems as well!

Otherwise... things have been... alright. A little akward having remembered... because Kyo and I... lets just say we didnt get along all to well. **humourless laugh** at least I know why I delighted in teasing him so much. **shakes head**

But... I think we're doing alright. we're.... **Blush** still getting along.

Oh, and on another unrelated note, I now knoew why mice tend to listen to me so well...

... and I really dont like Kyo's kitten, its been biting my toes with a little more force latly -_-

I got a new mouse! Her name is Hatsumomo... I'm so happy Kyo didnt mind me getting a new pet. i was so sad when Chiyo died... she was to scared from all the bad weather. Hatsumomo is so cute tho, he's got a real attitude **snicker**

After the pet shop, Kyo and I went out to lunch for pizza (may or may not have been a date ;p ), and I found out he hates leeks. I dont know what posessed me to tease him so, but I did, and it was amusing. I love teasing him. He's fun to spar with too, although I think I could beat him. I would have, had the coffee table not interfeared -_- Stupid thing.

I'll beat him **smile** I have to much fun playing with him not to try again once my leg doesnt hurt so much. I hardly understand why it delights me so much to tease him... although he seems to respond 'well' to it *laugh*

Well that strom caused a great deal of trouvle -_- *sigh* I havnt been able to update this in such a long while... but my computer suffered just like everything else in my house. **deep sigh** Its sort of frusterating... to have to start all over again. I detest the idea of being somone's burden, but I dont know what else I can do right now.

Thank you Seto, for letting me stay with you for the storm. I have somewhere else to go now, so I wont burden you any longer.It was a very nice visit and i hioe I can see you again soon ^_^

Now I'm staying with another boy named Kyo... I dont know why but I find something very familiar about him, I hardly found it strange at all when he said i could stay with him, almost like it had happened before. Strange, ne? Ah well... he's very nice, especially considering he's treating a stranger...

he has a cat that doesnt seem to like me to much **sigh** cats never like me for some reason -_- I supose its a good thing I dont have to wory about keeping a pet anymore, I dont think bringing a mouse into aplace with a cat is a good idea... I do miss having one tho **sigh**

Anyway, I'm going to go read for a while.

Did anyone happen to catch that storm the skirted the coast-line? My, it was a big one. I could feel the electricity in the air... It hurt my head actually. It sent sharp shocking pains through my skull and ... well.... I remembered some things I think I had forgotten. I wish I could keep them forgotten. *sigh*

It was the worst possible timing as well, I'm so horribly embarassed... I had somone over, a brilliant man named Seto. His company was very enjoyable. We sat on the beah for a short while, discussing poerty. It was nice. I do believe i will take him up on his offer, and visit him for that tea...

As for now, I think I should lay down. Theres this one particular spot on my head thats sending out the oddest shocking pains... perhaps I should see a doctor?

Remember that man I wrote about in the previous entry? well i ran into him whilst I was getting some food for Chiyo. he helped me find my way and I invited him back for a drink to repay his kindness. He seemed to enjoy the beach alot. I must say it was a... pleasant change of pace to have someone around, when he wasnt being to.... hyper, that is. He spoke about "taking me under his wing" and i dont imagine I would like to act anything like him.... however, in a very thick headed way, I found it sweet. People like him seem so odd to me, I dont know how anyone could act so... so... extravigant. Also, I have no idea how to spell extravigant. I happed to be spelling it fenetically.

THAT is a cruel irony. Fenetically is not spelled fenetically... Thats just mean -_-

Anyway, I think I'm going to... take a bubble bath. That sound rather pleasant.

I just woke up from the most bizare dream. I cant remember it all now, but there was a man with long silver hair. As well as Chiyo, my little pet mouse, she was there. With alot of other mice. *shakes head* The man looked very famillair as well, in this long red flowing... was I dreaming about a cross dresser? *shakes head* dear lord, what is going on in my head?

Chiyo is scampering around the key boared, she's so cute ^^ I fed her fresh celery from my own little garden in the back...

I think I will stay home from school today, the humidity is bothering my lungs and its dificult to breath. *sigh* I dislike feeling so fragile all the time.